I think the Doctor first subconsciously realized how he felt about Rose in Dalek. When he seals the door and Rose doesn’t make it through, you can see something change in his face that’s much more than him just feeling guilty. He’s terrified. Terrified of losing her. He hasn’t admitted it to himself at that point, but when the Dalek manipulates him by telling him to save “the woman he loves,” he certainly doesn’t argue with that. Later in that episode, when Rose refuses to let him kill the Dalek, she says “What the hell are you turning into?” That stops him right in his tracks. He wants so badly to hide the monster he thinks he is from Rose, to change into something halfway lovable.
I also think that’s the precise moment Rose begins to really fall for the Doctor. She sees him do something unthinkable for her: he lowers his weapon in front of a Dalek. The creature [partially] responsible for the destruction of his home, his race, and his sanity, and he lowers his weapon because Rose asked him to. At that moment I think she sees a glimpse of his potential, his inner soul that is very different from the hardened man the Time War has made him, someone who can love, someone who wants to love.
Of course Rose doesn’t make her first move until The Doctor Dances. She’s acting very bold, reckless even (perhaps as part of a defense mechanism after the traumatizing events of Father’s Day), and she uses her flirting with Jack to test the waters with the Doctor. He still has his guard up, and he does until The Parting of the Ways. He uses a regeneration to save her, and he does it without a second thought. He loves her. He’s admitted it to himself.
In Tooth and Claw, it’s clear they have some sort of understanding about their feelings for each other, even if it’s unclear whether or not they have discussed it. Their joking, their body language, and their constant eye contact tells us for sure that they’re in love.
In The Impossible Planet, we see that the initial joy of being in love has faded a bit, because they both seem to realize that their relationship can’t be simple. Rose suggests that they live a domestic life, and you can see the agony in the Doctor’s eyes. He knows he can’t live with her, but he isn’t ready to hurt her or let her go. Rose too seems to understand this, and she puts on a façade of casual acceptance, even though we sense her heartbreak and he does too. When he says “Oh she knows” as he’s about to go into the pit, I don’t at all believe that means he’s said “I love you” to her before, at least not in the context of romantic love. I think he’s trying to convince himself that he’ll never have to say it, because that will make it real. He hopes that they can continue silently knowing without acting on it, because that would only lead to pain.
In The Satan Pit, The Doctor says he believes in Rose. That’s when we know he’s accepted his love for her, because he’s verbalizing it. This is his equivalent of a confession. He has to confess to Satan himself rather than to a God because he feels that he isn’t worth any more than that due to his past crimes, along with the crimes he knows he will soon commit. He knows his love for her will do terrible damage to both of them, and that it would be selfish to tell her, and he is confessing that sin to the only being he feels he is worthy of confessing to, the Devil himself.
When he says he believes in Rose, he is saying that he believes his heart for once. He believes what his heart has been telling him all along, and he chooses it over his head. It is not practical to love Rose, it is not logical, it is not useful, but he BELIEVES his love for her. For the first time he believes that something really can exist without explanation, and that the meaning of something does not lie solely in his knowledge of it. He is choosing faith. He does not know love, he BELIEVES it. He is trusting his own heart. And that is why their love is so beautiful.
Okay, so we’re not doing hugging…
#but like really #did all of the planets in the galaxy come together one day #and go HEY WE SHOULD MAKE SOME SORT OF DOCUMENT THAT BINDS US ALL TOGETHER #IT’LL BE LIKE THE GENEVA CONVENTION OF PLANETS #WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT THE GENEVA CONVENTION IS DRYDEX V HAVEN’T YOU HEARD OF EARTH #YOU KNOW WHAT NEVERMIND IT’S NOT IMPORTANT #WHATEVER WE SHOULD JUST MAKE LIKE A TREATY OR SOMETHING OK #TO KEEP US ALL FOLLOWING THE SAME LAWS DUH THE UNITED PLANETS OF SISERO #D U H #WHAT #NO OF COURSE WE’RE NOT CALLING IT THE PLANETS CONFERENCE #THAT’S A RIDICULOUS NAME #NO NO NO #WE’RE GOING TO CALL IT #….. THE SHADOW PROCLAMATION! #BECAUSE SHADOWS ARE COOL THAT’S WHY #YOU KNOW WHAT DALEKS YOU CAN JUST GET THE HELL OUT YOU’RE NOT PART OF THE PROCLAMATION ANYMORE #WE’RE WRITING IN RULE ONE NOW: DALEKS ARE LAME NO ONE BE FRIENDS WITH THEM (via winterinthetardis)
Friendly reminder that while Eleven was here
Nine and Rose were up here
The same day, two different regenerations
why am i crying
witnesses of the end of the world
#it’s the difference in their Doctors; it’s the difference in their arcs #everyone says that Clara looks like a mirror image of Rose #and perhaps in a lot of ways she is - but it’s a horror story #the Doctor leaves her alone in these nightmares time and time again #she sees the end of the world and she is horrified at his - lack #his cheery apathy #towards the deaths of the ghosts that live around him #For Rose and Nine though #the end of the world is melancholic - yes #but it’s also full of life and joy #the knowledge that mankind will go on; has stretched across the stars #and ultimately they watch the world end together #they make it a beginning #a personal intimate moment #strangely beautiful #about the endlessness of the universe and how very very small yet so so important humans are to its stars #it’s the start of healing and love #Clara and the Doctor have nothing like that #because while Nine was damaged - Nine was present #fully #and Eleven is just slipping away behind his impossible girls and his love stories hidden in a ghost mansion #he’s about the puzzles and the hidden things#never the emotions #never the people #Clara is already beginning to suffer for it #she realizes that though she said it - ‘I don’t want to be compared to a ghost’ - there’s not much else people can be to this Doctor #just fun spicy diversions he pops off to see in his little blue box (neverfeedthesarcophagi)
The Last Great Time War (requested by anon)
With the exception of a very few survivors, the Time Lords and the Daleks disappeared from time and space. Gallifrey was destroyed in a silent flash as bright as a sun. Its annihilation was so profound it stretched deep into the past and far into the future. The Cruciform fell when Gallifrey was destroyed. The blast was so powerful the universe convulsed as planets, systems and galaxies were obliterated. (x)
#let’s not talk about this #let’s not talk about the planet populated by actual gods who could hold all of time and space in their hands #of a race that travesed dimensions with a skip and a jump and a laugh that echoed through universes #whose joy at their power curdled into greed #and of the doctor himself; the lonely violent god forced to look upon his own kind #the man who swallowed the abyss within himself with the knowledge that it would weigh within him for all eternity #who put out the stars before they burned out the rest of the galaxies (thymoss)
#forever in love with the rise and rise and terrible fall of the fêted empire of gallifrey #planet of the gods; of the timelords who controlled all of time and kept order throughout the galaxy; a planet of sweeping beauty and the he #height of civilization #plunged into blood and genocide and the actual platonic ideal of warfare; #a war that raged so wide it encompassed time itself; a war that threatened not just existence but memory in the most literal of ways #and the one time lord who took it inside himself and made of himself the most terrible #who destroyed everything; who scorched and salted the earth of his own race that the universe might rise from the ashes #the lonely terrible god #doctor who #no one man should have all that power #they blink and reality shivers
I don’t think a white person has had so much sass in all the history of sassyness as in this moment. 11 probably invented sass.
sassay
“11 probably invented sass”
11 invented sass my ass.
Excuse me
#lets just agree the doctor is the sassiest girl in the class and stop fighting
We don’t walk away
from trouble
The Doctor about the human race.
